OMG, my teeth/ear hurt SOOOOOOO BAD!!! I have been up since 6am with pain. Ive taken 4 ibuprofen, a heating pad and some oragel and nothing seems to be helping! I feel like Im dying or something, if you have any suggestions please let me know!!!
Todays walk was 1hr 22m. I was sooo tired. Sometimes I get to the hills and can walk them with no problem but I never seem to want to walk back lol. I am soooo tired right now but HUNGRY. Thats not true, I have cravings. If I were truly hungry, Id just go eat an apple. Instead, I want fries. I am forcing myself to not eat anything unhealthy right now. Itd be so easy to go out and get something but I cant. I dont want to start any bad habits. Hopefully I can fall asleep and get up early and go for another walk. If I could just curb my eating habits but tonights yet another start. Im always going to try.
This weekend, I know Florida is doing many fundraisers for Michael Brewer. Im thrilled about that but Id be more thrilled if this wasnt even a situation. I guess his 911 calls have been released but I wont listen to them. All the comments left by people who HAVE listened stated they wish they hadnt. I cant imagine...If youre interested, he has a Facebook, er, someone started one for him, The Michael Brewer Foundation.
Also--my pedometer has NEVER worked and so I have no idea how many miles Im walking when I do 1hr 22m. Do you guys have any suggestions as to where I can look and find this info? So far all Ive tried is Livestrong.com and I couldnt find any info there. TY in advance :)
Thats it for now. Im beat, Im gonna go get some rest, all of you have a LOVELY evening!
Sweet dreams. :)
Im sure youve all noticed this, but its hard for me to stick with things. I get so into the idea of whatever it is at the moment, but as soon as it becomes a challenge or an obstacle, I give up. This trait seems to run in my family. Part of my Life Makeover is to overcome this. I really need to learn accountability and to follow through on things. I need to learn to just go for it, whatever "it" may be.
I have been going walking. I tried to do day two of the C25K but my legs would hurt every time Id even start to run and I remembered this happened the last time I tried to do it. But I was determined to do something so I started walking. The first walk was 30 minutes even though it felt like so much longer. The second time was 1hr 6 mins and todays walk was 1hr 18 minutes. Its fun and refreshing and I cant believe I forgot all about that part of myself that loves being outdoors. I put myself in such isolation that being outdoors seems like a gift. And as I was walking, I saw the most beautiful thing, the sun had a rainbow circling around it. Soooo pretty!
I have lost weight twice in my life, twice where the weight stayed off for a good while before it came back. The first time was a very unhealthy way, where I ate nothing but 2 bowls of cereal a day and went walking 3 times a day(on the way to school, on the way back and then after dinner). I lost 30 pounds very fast. All of a sudden, everyone was very nice to me, complimenting me. The kids at school didnt really snicker when they heard my name. I was so relieved.
The second time, I went on a very healthy diet. My aunt had me counting everything, making sure I didnt exceed 2000 calories, 30 grams of fat and 200g of carbs every day. Plus...we went walking at least 5 times a week. And on top of that, I added weights and more exercise and the weight slowly but surely came off. It did take longer than the cereal thing though but I was healthy and happy and not very hungry.
So right now, Im on a mission to walk for 90 days. Straight. I found two big hills that kick my ass. They leave me sore as hell but like I said, I love the outdoors. My mini goal is 7 days. Tomorrow will be 4 days. I just need to go earlier. Im also going to go back to the plan my aunt had me on. When I first moved here, I told her it was hard to do without her because I had no one to answer to. She told me to answer to myself. Duh, Monica.
I have to say...I had to go down to the local college yesterday to do a student education plan and the whole time I was so nervous because I had no idea if I should just go with nursing like everyone has said because you make so much money or go for writing and proofreading because that is something that Im good at and truly enjoy. I prayed and prayed for an answer. I knew if I went to be a nurse Id never have to take a loan and would be financially independent. I also knew that Im not good at any of that stuff and would end up being miserable in the long run, kicking myself for not going for my dream.(Once again, I would have been following everyone else's dream for me) It felt so good when she was showing me the classes I would need, theyd be stuff that I would enjoy. I felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders.
I feel like Im headed in the right direction. Finally.
Has anyone noticed the drastic difference between old school Stephanie Pratt..
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and current Stephanie Pratt?
Doesnt she look pretty and healthy and pretty healthy in her before picture? She is shrinking away, dammit. Damn you Hollywood! Exactly what is her role on this show anyways? Shes Spencers sister and all, but all of a sudden, she's hanging out with Lo and Audrina and what the hell? I think everyone on that show owes Lauren breakfast, lunch and dinner...and their first born.
Speaking of Audrina! Why on earth are two pretty girls fighting over such a douche bag? Or does he just play one on t.v.?
Kristin, I expected more from you!
Here is my problem with Audrina...ok, so she has had this on/off again relationship with JB for YEARS. She seems extremely possessive of him, and thinks that he should always be available for him. Fine, ok, whatever. But then some rumors hit that he and Lauren hooked up. I doubt this is true and Lauren is adamant that this did not happen. Audrina caused major drama with this accusation even though JB even denied it! She feels like Lauren betrayed her...ugh. But then on vacation in Hawaii, Lil Miss Audrina has no trouble trying to hook up with Brody Jenner, even though hes dating Jayde! At the end of that episode, Audrina is even saying, "Come after me, like, start a war." meaning, Bring it on, Jayde! Now Lauren is off the show and Kristin-for some insane-reason is interested in dating JB.(And this is how I know its fake) But of course, Audrina is throwing a total bitch fest over this and now thinks Kristin is the enemy. However...who is Audrinas next hook up? I dont know his name either, I just know that he is a close friend of JB's. This chic is all over the place. She is one of those women who demand loyalty while promising loyalty to no one. I hate those types of people.
And Im actually thanking Spencer for not wanting to have kids. Although he is one of those people that I could see a baby completely transforming him...and then Heidi will get bored and leave him. Anyways, yeah Spencer, stand your ground!
Also! Could the Brody and Jayde story line be more fake?! We all know their still together and feuding with that Joe Francis guy from "Girls Gone Wild". I do think Jayde can do crazy on her own, though, I dont think she needs help from MTV. But I also know that she cant be THAT insecure, right?! She was the one in Playboy, not Kristin. And as much as everyone may hate Kristin, I wish I had her confidence. She seems like she puts up with very little, she is not afraid to defend herself and tell you whats what. I like the girl. But I do miss Lauren...
